Since I am still having trouble raising the funds to get my rosemary book published, I am going to have to switch my focus for now.

My home is in need of work on the electric and I have been packing as much as I can when I can because it involves opening the walls, meaning I can't have my kids in this house while the work is getting done.  Yes, some of the funds I'm asking for will go toward this effort since I write in my home. This means all of the herbal books I use as sources are in boxes so I can't push on with my herbal blog until this work is done. 

What this means is I had this as a daily thing before I switched to focus on my Rosemary book full-time.  I will switch to posting on my spiritual blog, attempting to do this daily (things are still crazy here).  I am a home-school mom and just started my daughter in preschool.  I taught a lot while I was in the military but all those students already knew how to read and write...  This is a whole new monster!  Fortunately there are a lot of resources out there and I bought books for a friend a few years ago and she gave them back when she was done.  Preschool didn't even exist when I was growing up so this is a very new thing.  I introduced my daughter to scissors yesterday and a white board and dry-erase markers today.  She is quite happy!

Love and Light!

It has been 2 months since my last book update and I don't have much to report.  I was able to fix the issue with my images so the book is able to be published but the finances to get it published are still not there.  I have begun the process to go LLC and have been hit with 2 bills on that that I cannot currently pay.  My husband, a truck driver, has gotten one paycheck in the past 5 weeks.  The household bills have not been paid for the month much less to get this portion taken care of.  I have started a GoFundMe but have not gotten any help through it yet.  Someone told me I needed a bio and my initial thought was "that's on my website."  Then I realized there is a bio section on GoFundMe so I have now completed that portion. 

I am not accustomed to asking for help, in any way.  As my followers know, I'm retired Air Force.  I'm used to serving others, not having others helping me.  This entire process is foreign to me.  This has been a serious "swallow my pride" moment.  I'm always the strong one, lending my shoulder when others need one.  Now I find myself needing a shoulder and I realize there isn't one.  It's a very difficult situation to be in. 

On a brighter side, my daughter turns 4 next week.  She will have a fairly good day thanks to having a mommy that likes to buy things on clearance and put them up until these special days come around.  The struggles mentioned above will not be apparent to her young eyes.  We, as always, will celebrate when daddy gets home next. I have started her on pre-school.  I was going to wait until she was officially 4 but I got the development questionnaire from her doc and discovered there were a few things she is supposed to know how to do so I decided to go ahead and start her on the collection of books I have accumulated over the past few years on how to teach your child pre-school stuff.  I spent over a decade teaching other people's grown kids.  Now I get to experience teaching children that have yet to learn to read and write.

She and her brother will never understand how difficult these last 4 years have been.  Being a full-time student while raising children in their most tender ages was the biggest challenge I have ever faced.  I had to sacrifice a lot, including friendships of people who simply couldn't understand there wasn't enough time on the clock to fulfill their expectations.  Being a veteran doesn't make me a super hero.  I'm still human.  This has been a very lonely ride but at least I can say I've gotten this far, somehow.  I know the next leg will be incredible for myself and my family.  I just have to get over this last hurdle, which feels like a monstrous one from where I'm standing right now. 

Part of me wishes I had decided to go through a regular publisher but I don't want to be a "starving artist".  My work takes a lot of time and effort and a publisher will not compensate me appropriately for the effort these books take.  I MUST continue to go it "alone".  But this "alone" needs a leg up.  Not one person builds their business by themselves and I am no exception.  Once I get the help I need, I can then resume helping others with my published works.  Thank you for reading and understanding and sticking with me for as long as you have.  Much love and appreciation! 

Love and light!